Patience is a virtue

It would be just about time to announce to our friends about our pregnancy if it had survived in September.... I thought about it a lot last night ... I am thinking about it a lot today.  I logged onto my Facebook this morning and saw the sweetest pregnancy announcement.  It was a picture of my two friends' hands cupped around  each other with scrabble letters that spelled out "baby" and the caption read: Reagan and I are getting one of these!! Sadly, it won't be here in time for Christmas!

They are due The last week of May.... The same time I would be expecting my bundle. WHY do I even think about that? It is torture. Yet, I torture myself all the time... looking at baby clothes and planning my nursery. UGH.  Okay, moving on...

Tomorrow I see the fertility specialist! We plan our IUI cycle and get our prescription for the meds we will be taking. I hope it goes well. I hope the doctor has a good plan and she is hopeful that we will get our baby.   I am just nervous and I guess I am hyper sensitive to things because the reality of IUI and a medically assisted cycle is really kicking in.  I guess I feel like I have already beaten the odds of a natural pregnancy and I am back to square one.  Anyways, tomorrow is the beginning of another journey and I know the payoff will be our beautiful baby.... someday.... someday soon.